I was told I had BPD a few years ago, althought the shrink that made this diagnosis saw me about 2/3 times for 15 minutes each time....I've spoken to different counsellors/drug works/alochol workers and all say the same when I've spent hours speaking to them that I fit more into bipolar, then bpd...and that with the right medication to help I can get the bipolar under control, then I wouldn't need to self medicate (both over counter and illegal) and life would seem more manageable (what a joke!)
Does it matter if I'm BPD or Bi-polar, would medication help to stabilise my moods or would it be another pill to pop when I'm already popping pills, and using drugs....
Friends and Family often call me Kerry Katona...my mum says that I'm split personaility which is a completely different story (my first counsellor said the same to me)...
i'm so fuxked up, I don't know if I care about diagnosis..does it matter, will having a dignosis that I feel fits make life bearable, when it doesn't feel bearable!
Will it help to actutally know why my heads like its is, why my moods can be hyper or hypo, why one day i can do somethng and a few days later I remember nothing of it....or even know why I done it when its something I hate!
I'm seriously messed up....all i want at the moment is to go and bang up, and get litres of vodka and be done with this misarable life, this miserable joke of a life.
Does it matter if I'm BPD or Bi-polar, would medication help to stabilise my moods or would it be another pill to pop when I'm already popping pills, and using drugs....
Friends and Family often call me Kerry Katona...my mum says that I'm split personaility which is a completely different story (my first counsellor said the same to me)...
i'm so fuxked up, I don't know if I care about diagnosis..does it matter, will having a dignosis that I feel fits make life bearable, when it doesn't feel bearable!
Will it help to actutally know why my heads like its is, why my moods can be hyper or hypo, why one day i can do somethng and a few days later I remember nothing of it....or even know why I done it when its something I hate!
I'm seriously messed up....all i want at the moment is to go and bang up, and get litres of vodka and be done with this misarable life, this miserable joke of a life.