I was in a shitty situation for a while. Working a horrible job for 2 narcissist whist carrying their jobs worth and getting shouted at and gas-lit every time I turned around. I finally reached my limit and looked for a new job, but adding jobhunting onto everything was whole hay-bale that broke the camels back.
I ran out of every mental and emotional resource and then they day decided to dump more on me and I broke. I collapsed and cried like a newborn. Only my wife can really tell you how long I cried, and I was completely useless for more than a day after. When I went back to work the day after that (I know it was WAY too soon) they took one look at me and went easy on me for a while.
Over the next few months I would collapse about once or twice a month. When I collapsed I wouldnt always cry, but I physically didnt have the strength to move for an hour or two.
I for the new job, we moved, and I started healing. I actually started to feel echos of my old self coming back a couple weeks ago. The anxiety was down to a few moderately easily handled incidents a week, and I was rebuilding the "aspie buffer" as I used to call it that made masking easy (even though there is almost no charge in it atm). Then around the middle of last week I just felt wrong. Out of nowhere for no reason I was struggling not to cry all day. It hasnt gone away. It feels like depression-lite.
I looked it up and apparently this is just part of the process of recovering from extreme burnout, but I dont want to worry my wife, I dont like how helpless and demotivated I feel, and I dont like where my mind is going lately.
Anyone with experience of recovering from burnout have any advice or roadmap for me?
I ran out of every mental and emotional resource and then they day decided to dump more on me and I broke. I collapsed and cried like a newborn. Only my wife can really tell you how long I cried, and I was completely useless for more than a day after. When I went back to work the day after that (I know it was WAY too soon) they took one look at me and went easy on me for a while.
Over the next few months I would collapse about once or twice a month. When I collapsed I wouldnt always cry, but I physically didnt have the strength to move for an hour or two.
I for the new job, we moved, and I started healing. I actually started to feel echos of my old self coming back a couple weeks ago. The anxiety was down to a few moderately easily handled incidents a week, and I was rebuilding the "aspie buffer" as I used to call it that made masking easy (even though there is almost no charge in it atm). Then around the middle of last week I just felt wrong. Out of nowhere for no reason I was struggling not to cry all day. It hasnt gone away. It feels like depression-lite.
I looked it up and apparently this is just part of the process of recovering from extreme burnout, but I dont want to worry my wife, I dont like how helpless and demotivated I feel, and I dont like where my mind is going lately.
Anyone with experience of recovering from burnout have any advice or roadmap for me?
