I've posted before about my issues and I only come back here when things are really bad. I'm a guy in my mid twenties and my below average size penis destroys my self esteem. So bad that I have suicidal ideations. I'm 6'3" 250 pounds so my large frame only makes it appear smaller. And I'm not fat so losing weight wouldn't help. I'm fitness nut that weight trains 5 days a week. Exercise doesn't help but I will never stop training. I've tried everything I can to get over this issue but I feel like I've lost. I feel ashamed and worthless as a man. I hate my parents for their fucked up genetics and making me this way. I can't go to therapy or take meds or I will lose my job. I just wish I knew how to cope so I won't end up doing something I may regret. Thanks to anyone who took the time to read.