Can't do it

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by LaLaLullaby, Apr 1, 2007.

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  1. LaLaLullaby

    LaLaLullaby Well-Known Member

    Forget it. It's off.
    However much I do dream of, obsess over and want to die, I can't do it.
    Not because of me, but because of how it's going to affect everyone around me and disgrace any beliefs I have.

    Take it however you want.
    I don't know how to take it myself.

    I'm fucking through.
  2. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    I for one am glad you can't do it. Maybe now that you have come to this decision you can quit fantasizing and obsessing over it. You have said in previous posts that things are fairly decent in your life. Maybe you can begin to concentrate on these things and use them to help you solve your other issues. Please take care and stay safe. :hug:
  3. bono

    bono Well-Known Member

    Really I think that makes you closer to suicide that ever!.

    I always use to fantasize about suicide
    Dreamt about my death and funeral
    Felt better seeing your people’s pain
    Felt better that other people cared about me
    Felt better knowing I would be missed

    It was a very pleasant dream
    That always made me feel worst
    Felling guilty about having those thoughts

    That dream will eventually become real
    It is no longer a dream
    It now nightmare
    Dreading the pain I would cause
    Feeling guilt over other’s disappointment
    Wondering how I can minimize the aftershock

    Most of all
    You wonder how doing something so wrong, can feel so right
    You are now one impulse, one bad day away from

    Wow. I kinda sort-of just wrote a poem. Do that make me gay?!? I am not gay, but poems are gayer that gay porn.

    Get some help. Don’t assume guilt will prevent taking your own life. Guilt is easily removed with drugs and alcohol. Not many can take there own life while sober. If you are going to be alive, you might as well try to make the most of it.

    ~Bono the uppity Canadian with a floppy head and beady little eyes
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