Can't do it

[LaLaLullaby]

Forget it. It's off.
However much I do dream of, obsess over and want to die, I can't do it.
Not because of me, but because of how it's going to affect everyone around me and disgrace any beliefs I have.

Take it however you want.
I don't know how to take it myself.

I'm fucking through.

 

[gentlelady]

I for one am glad you can't do it. Maybe now that you have come to this decision you can quit fantasizing and obsessing over it. You have said in previous posts that things are fairly decent in your life. Maybe you can begin to concentrate on these things and use them to help you solve your other issues. Please take care and stay safe. :hug:

 

[bono]

Really I think that makes you closer to suicide that ever!.

I always use to fantasize about suicide
Dreamt about my death and funeral
Felt better seeing your people’s pain
Felt better that other people cared about me
Felt better knowing I would be missed

It was a very pleasant dream
That always made me feel worst
Felling guilty about having those thoughts

That dream will eventually become real
It is no longer a dream
It now nightmare
Dreading the pain I would cause
Feeling guilt over other’s disappointment
Wondering how I can minimize the aftershock

Most of all
You wonder how doing something so wrong, can feel so right
You are now one impulse, one bad day away from
KILLING YOURSELF


Wow. I kinda sort-of just wrote a poem. Do that make me gay?!? I am not gay, but poems are gayer that gay porn.

Get some help. Don’t assume guilt will prevent taking your own life. Guilt is easily removed with drugs and alcohol. Not many can take there own life while sober. If you are going to be alive, you might as well try to make the most of it.

~Bono the uppity Canadian with a floppy head and beady little eyes