I used to be anorexic and I'd sometimes throw up after eating. But lately I feel fat and I've been eating less and less and now I throw up after every meal. I feel soooo damn fat, everyone tells me I'm skinny but I dont think I am... I dont want to go back to the hospital, but these voices inside my head keep telling me, DONT EAT, YOU'RE TOO FAT... What can I do? I'm stuggling with cutting, suicidal thoughts, and now this... whats next?