can't go on

Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by coffeekitten, Jun 26, 2010.

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  1. coffeekitten

    coffeekitten Active Member

    I am 5 foot 2 and 155lb. I look like a hideous monster. I feel sick looking at myself in the mirror. I used to be anorexic, and people could say i am just imaging it, but no i AM overweight now, and i AM disgusting. so disgusting, you would want to throw up if you saw me naked. I cry looking in the mirror. I want to starve myself but my boyfriend monitors my food intake and makes me eat SO much. it sickens me. I go to the gym and work out alot, but i am still so gross and fat.

    I am in pain so much of the time, have terrible headaches, and feel sick to the point of throwing up when i go out anywhere, and i don;t know why. I hate doing anything. nothing is enjoyable anymore.

    I want to die. I really want to find a painless way of dying so i can just fall asleep and never wake up...
     
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