I feel like all my efforts thus far have been utterly useless. I've been
unable to sleep due to worrying about what my future will be like
and am sleep deprived as a result. I can't think any reason to continue with life.
unable to sleep due to worrying about what my future will be like
and am sleep deprived as a result. I can't think any reason to continue with life.
All the things I used to hold on whilst depressed didn't fix my depression in the end, but they help SO much with stress and difficulty in life now that I am not depressed anymore.
Nothing is a waste, everything teaches us something, and if nothing else, what you have learned is that you have the strength to keep going with something for over a year, and you should be damned proud of yourself.
Don't give up on this now, but if you feel it isn't your "Answer", you can keep looking for it whilst maintaining the good practices and healthy self care you have been learning so far.