Confused

[SushiGirl]

This autism thing makes me feel like I'm blind sometimes. Can't interpret facial expressions at all with some people so unless they tell me what they want I've no clue what they want me to do. I hate it.

 

[Lisa the Goatgirl]

I can totally understand. That's the bit that sucks about being autistic. It's not the autism itself that's really the problem, it's that we're born into a world full of people who got handed this neurotypical framework at birth, who expect us to also just get it somehow. That unduly places so much blame on us, and we internalise it over time. There are so many unspoken rules and subtle little interactions that are never explained to us, and almost nobody is willing to try and meet us where we're at, we always have to come to where everyone else is.

I spent a large chunk of my childhood in therapy to train me how to act like a neurotypical, and it eventually worked, but it damaged and traumatised me in so many ways, and the end result is i feel fluent in a language that still isn't my native tongue, but now i can't stop speaking it. It really is kind of a no-win situation. Either we're supposed to abandon our actual selves for the comfort of others, or we spend our lives involuntarily inconveniencing others, because we aren't automatically given the tools to understand what everyone else is saying. Sorry to hear it's all getting to you.

 

[numb369]

I have problems with social interactions because I have a lot of difficulty reading people.
Sometimes I feel like an alien species when interacting with the so - called " normal people ".
Sorry youre having such difficulties, its so confusing and upsetting to deal with.
Big hugs.