It's been so long and for good reason, most of this year I'd been doing pretty okay. Yeah, a long term relationship had fizzled out but for a short period of time I found a new potential love... that was eventually lost due to us both having so much going on in our lives that we just couldn't make it work the way wed each need it to.
this part always hurts because when potential romance ends with someone i could see myself befriending, im always scared ill ruin it by lashing out. Ive done it so many times and i always get scared when the rate of talking further decreases it s because of me and it turns into me eventually just lashing out and speaking my mind. It doesnt always come.out the way id want it to and i immediately regret it.
On top of the love life stuff, there's also rough home and work drama. My siblings fight like cats and dogs, we're all grumpy and demotivated so we're dealing with a lot of mess. One of my siblings is between jobs right now for a little longer and it's just overall so much change that I cam barely stomach it
this part always hurts because when potential romance ends with someone i could see myself befriending, im always scared ill ruin it by lashing out. Ive done it so many times and i always get scared when the rate of talking further decreases it s because of me and it turns into me eventually just lashing out and speaking my mind. It doesnt always come.out the way id want it to and i immediately regret it.
On top of the love life stuff, there's also rough home and work drama. My siblings fight like cats and dogs, we're all grumpy and demotivated so we're dealing with a lot of mess. One of my siblings is between jobs right now for a little longer and it's just overall so much change that I cam barely stomach it
