I have been dealing with these issues for the 30-odd years. I have been on antidepressants since I was, if I recall, my early 20's. I have been diagnosed with severe Depression and Anxiety and have horrible difficulty dealing with it, despite medication, as a result of being on the Autistic Spectrum, Level 1. I am getting help, but, especially after a mix-up with my medication which put me in a psychiatric hospital for almost last year? I am reaching a horrible situation where, every so often, I hit a "down" and ending up wanting to die. Sometimes I feel better after a while, sometimes I don't. Any and all helpful suggestions, please?