Where to start.. Well.. My depression is slowly coming back. I had a long time (or what seemed to be a long time) of depression free living. Then crap hits the fan and the world comes crashing back down on my head... To start with my son has to be rushed to ER. Turns out he has low blood sugar. He refuses to come home with me so my Dad has to keep him for 3 days. Okay now to this weekend - He visits my mom for Easter she refuses to follow his diet and sends him home sicker then shit. He vomits all over his bed (and mine), not to mention blankets (and pillows and clothes..and the floors). Today he acts like total hell. He wont listen to anything I tell him. So after fighting over his diet all day and listening to constant back talking I made him go to bed. Hes asleep now but it took a half hour of him laying there screaming at me to let him up.. To make things worse my Grandma called me up the other day and accused me of being mean to my son... Mean..MEAN..What is wrong with her..I have walked thru what most people would consider hell fire my whole life..Im dealing with him the best that I can..I dont beat him, I dont starve him, hes not dirty, hes not neglectic..Im NOT mean to him... I do the best that I can. I dont have anything to work with. My house is old and falling down, I have no money to do crap with, but I do the best that I can..And she has the gull to tell me Im being mean to him..... Okay anyways...My health is not getting any better..My kids four this month and Im still damaged from the birth - which has ruint my life (yes litterally ruint it)...I lost my medical coverage so cant afford to see the doctor I was seeing anymore. Which is fine, I dont want medication...I know, why complain if I dont want medication...Im a bloody human being and Im alowed to complain and feel however I want about whatever I want - thats one thing no one can take (my power to feel however I want). I guess Im just depressed with life in general..Im stuck in a dead end marriage thats not getting any better, Im not happy with being a parent, I cant stand my family life, I still havent moved into a decent living space, I have no money, Im behind on snail mails, I owe swaps out the ass (thank goodness for patient friends!), Im in desperate need of new clothes, my husbands dog pissed in my bed and ate my new soap, its raining, my back feels broken, my hip hurts worse then ever, my left leg cramps so bad, my knees are killing me in this bad weather, and I could go on forever..I dont know why Im even posting this..I always find my way back to this website.. Something always brings me back to post and vent a little... I have no one left on the other forum I use to visit frequently..