trapped88 what's going on? I can't pretend that I can save you hun. Only you can do that. I can promise to listen and help you work through things. We can talk about what is happening to make you feel this way. I know what it is like to need somebody, anybody to listen to you. To sit with you when you feel so desparate. It is good that you feel you can turn to someone, or something to help you through. Know that you have people who do care for you and are willing to take the time to do just that. Please take care. :hug: