Soul wrenching devestation.....that is what I am feeling right now. Mind numbing pain and annoying is what I have been feeling all day because I just had my 2nd miscarriage. I am utterly destroyed. I feel like I am all alone and I did something wrong. I keep wondering why and I know that I am not going to get an answer. I also wonder what I did wrong, is karma coming back on me for some reason.
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Devestated
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I’m terribly sorry to learn of this horribly awful and tragic news, @Rainydays2 … I can only imagine the pain, heartbreak, shock & disappointment you must be going through. As I understand it, these things are a lot more common than are made aware, and many or most may not know about it as such, or as much, simply because it isn’t so often, or as often thrown about or around, and discussed. My Sister only told me she’s had two as well, and that that was some time ago, so? You know! …I was as shocked or surprised as much by the news as the fact that she’d kept it hidden from me—but maybe she’d felt badly about it, or somehow like it was her fault as well in the matter. I guess I didn’t do a very good job of asking her about it. And it’s almost never come up again since. So don’t go filling your head with all of these untrue thoughts when it comes to assessing blame. Sure we’d all love to have answers, but as I’ve said, if you look at the numbers, I’d bet they’re much more common than is otherwise readily known or aware by the general public. Take care and I’m sorry for your profound loss. Be easy with yourself, and also kind. Thank you for sharing your story. Even though I know it hurts tremendously right now.
I'm so sorry about your loss. You did nothing wrong. But I can understand why you think this way. You feel you need an explanation for why this happened. And sometimes it's easy to say we must have done something wrong. But you did nothing wrong. And I wish I could give you a satisfactory explanation. All I know is these things happen. They are nobody's fault. And it's completely understandable to feel devastated right now. I just want you to know you'll be in my thoughts, and SF will always be here for you.
Thank you everyone. Deep down I know I didn't do anything wrong. It is just my dark thoughts trying to get me to spiral. I beat them back once from my first one and I will do it again with this one. I might come out battered and bruised (figuratively) but I will eventually get through this. Talking does help.