Dissociated today

[jimk]

Lost phone and Internet service during the night..lost without this..son Johnny with mom last night until noon today.. Had night terror dreams 2nd time went back to sleep..waking up caused a flood of flashbacks to my childhood.. Was back then..defenseless and going thru it all again..

Dissociated then and there is about 4 or so hours that I have no memories of..had not dissoc since dec 20th.. Did not miss doing this..was foolish enuf to think just maybe was done with this's

Have not cried since about 1990..then Katie my wife at time came walking out to living room with her suitcase..she left then.. That hurt then and reliving my childhood again hurts very deeply..

I want to cry but not able to let myself do that..

 

[WildCherry]

:hug: I can't imagine how terrifying that must be. I know your phone service is out, but if you need anything and have a Cell, you can call anytime.

 

[Sadeyes]

I also feel so vulnerable when I do not have those connections...so sorry it was so rough for you...sending caring hugs