Do I even deserve to feel disgust anymore?

[I_waste_everything]

The fact of my own fault in what occurred, my insistence on inviting the disgusting, my compartmentalization by which I kept being "happy" to see it, all of the above to my failure to adults when something could have still been done about it.

Have I forsaken the right to feel disgusted? I'm starting to feel that. I begin to feel revulsion and moral outrage, but I feel like a pretender. That I'm too unclean to judge anything.

 

[Oizys Moros]

@I_waste_everything

your feelings are valid. However you choose to cope with/ overcome/ accept/ and heal from traumatic events.

I wish you the best at dealing with your revelations.

 

[may71]

You're not at fault for being abused. You have a right to feel revulsion and moral outrage.

Being abused does not make you unclean.

 

[seabird]

@I_waste_everything I'm sorry you've been through this.
The shame belongs on the abuser.
The "being happy" and compartmentalizations are a way of surviving the layers of hurt, but they don't signify unclean.