Empathy Only do i even matter?

[Luthien Tinuviel]

i might be in a relationship soon and idk if that will even happen now but this guy i know from some gigs i did always tells me he wants us to have s.x and he called me out for being asexual.
he started talking to me again after i defined the other relationship which is not even committal, but i told him i might be with someone soon and dont want to hurt him. but the talk got worse and its so vulgar.
he made me feel little again with the one thing he said that he passed off as a joke.
i am hurting so much from it because its like i was so infantilized by my dad and abused at the same time. im sexual but a child. and i want to die.

 

[Windhover]

I read what you said, and I'm sorry for what happened to you and how you're feeling si. You absolutely matter. You're welcomed and safe when you're here. You can have boundaries and decide for yourself if s*x is what you want. Nobody should ever push you and especially not pas it off as a joke. It is abusive. That was something my ex used to do.

 

[Luthien Tinuviel]

I read what you said, and I'm sorry for what happened to you and how you're feeling si. You absolutely matter. You're welcomed and safe when you're here. You can have boundaries and decide for yourself if s*x is what you want. Nobody should ever push you and especially not pas it off as a joke. It is abusive. That was something my ex used to do.

thank you. i am not sure if i was clear that these are not the same men.
now im afraid the man i want to be with doesnt even want to be with me anymore even though hes not aware and nothing actually happened.

 

[may71]

I'm sorry this happened.