I weigh myself like 5-8 times a day. I feel depressed and guilty every time I eat anything. I count calories like crazy. If the scale shows I gained any weight at all, even like a tenth of a pound I start wondering if I really actually gained it somehow, or if it's because I just recently ate or drank something within the past couple of hours and it'll go back down again once I go to the bathroom the next time. However, I've never tried to throw up my food...(although it has made me happy before when I did throw up without purposely trying to on numerous occasions because I actually felt nauseous and sick...) I'm 124lbs at 5'4 I have Borderline and Avoidant Personality Disorders, Social Anxiety, Mild-Moderate depression, and generalized anxiety So based on that information, anyone have a theory about the question in my title?