Do you remember when?

[Null]

I sorta hate to bring this up, I'm quite curious as to the general consensus on this question. I'm not sure quite how to put it but maybe its best to just throw it out there.
Do you remember at what age you were when you first had a suicidal thought?

For me it the earliest I can remember is the age of 5.

 

[GreyCat]

I was twelve, almost thirteen.

 

[Sais]

I think I was about 7

 

[peachesmary]

around 9 or 10yrs old.

 

[Baldr]

when I was around 7

 

[Wastingecho]

first active suicial thought at 19 (30+ years ago)

looking back, first recognizable occurrence of depression at 15

 

[centella]

Six. I might not have been technically suicidal, but i definitely didn't want to be a part of the world anymore.

 

[SaraRose]

Ehh about 10-11. I just kept thinking "I wanna die." I really started thinking of ways when I was 13 though...

 

[Mr Stewart]

I was seventeen (I'm twenty-eight now). I remember that night specifically. I do not, however, remember the event that precipitated it. This would have been around the time I was living with my brother and sister. Mom had moved out some months prior. Might have been when brother and sister decided to take off which forced me to move in with father for a short while. Something around there. I'm fairly certain I had never considered it before.

As for depression in general, in hindsight it must have started building up around the same time as puberty. Eleven/twelve-ish. I didn't realize it until much later because of all of the family related upheaval that was also in full swing at the time. Family falls apart = you feel bad. That's normal. I thought it was just that.

 

[Brandt]

14 or 15 maybe, right when all the shit with my family happened.

 

[Jackie's Strength]

I'm guessing my early teens, since I wrote a poem about suicide at the age of 15, and remember being quite depressed and thinking about it for a long time before then.

 

[houseofcards]

12-13. I was in 6th grade.

 

[Bigman2232]

yup, 19. I was unhappy before then but while Highschool wasn't great, I always new it was just something to get through with and then I can get out and away from the city and the people. Never thought about suicide, just was a little depressed.

I think it took me two or three weeks into university to realize that nothing was going to change and that I'd be stuck in the situation I'm in for the rest of my life. Hell I even made a game of it. I posted the lyrics to 3 songs about suicide and said the person who guessed the common theme got a chocolate bar.

 

[AloneInside]

When I was about 22. (3 years ago)

I'd been down for a long time before then, but never contemplated suicide untill then.

 

[RumoursOfMyDemise]

14, I think. My memory is terrible. Looking back though, I've been depressed probably since around 12 or 13.

 

[flowers]

I go to a very accomplished and respected healer/teacher. Shes pretty amazing. She told me that in utero I realized the genetics I was getting myself involved with, I wanted out. But it was too late by then to back out. I believe her. I think I never wanted to be here. I always wanted out. I also think that on a soul level I knew i had to stay. I still know it

 

[nolonger]

i dont really remember, probly 6 or 7 years ago.