Where does one find balance (or maybe that's the whole point - depression obliterates balance)... I'm tired and low, exhausted. For the first time ever I considered cutting. I have no idea where that came from! I'm so afraid of pain I can't act on what brought me here to begin with. I just don't get it. Today I'm the lost sheep caught in the brambles...not even God can reach me it seems. No hearts today - I'm empty and lost in my own brainless head.