I think lots of us here on SF understand...
I just wish there was something we could do to make it better... for you AND for myself! :hug:
Today is my birthday... my worst ever... and I am SO close to just giving up and checking out... no sleep, anxiety, shaking, crying non-stop, physical and emotional pain... I think I can understand why it's so hard to go on. But I certainly don't have the magic words to make it all better... or I would use them on myself as well.
But I hope you somehow feel better! :console: