My job is a delivery driver, but I have a big problem, I am afraid of driving. It started with the gradual rise of panic attacks but I was able to get rid of most of them with medication. But now I fear that I will have a panic attack even though that most likely won't happen. I fear the next work day as I will have to drive in the mountains or on the highway or interstate. I wish every nite something bad were to happen to me so I could call in sick. I even have thought of harming myself to achieve such a goals. I have no idea what I am going to do, I can't live like this day to day.