I keep on getting very undesirable personality test results (like 2w3 271, when 5/7/9 is far more aligned with how i wish i were). If i tell this to chatGPT i just get told "it doesnt define you, youre a WoNdErFuL cOmPlEx InTroSpECTivE individual!!!" but typology means so much to me)
I want to be the backrooms
I want to be those scene kids
I want to not give a fuck
I want to be a basement dweller (as cringe as that is)
I do NOT want to be a "sim"
if I am convinced I am a mistyped sensor + E2 in an intuition grip, instead of otherwise, I feel pathetic.
Porridge is such a younger self food.
so 2w1 people are supposed to become more 5w6 with age?
it's considered cowardly to find anything creepy at all
CURVY WOMAN. I dont want to be her
i hope my physique wont get that thicc. i worry it already is
hoarding, materialism, consumerism, sexuality, eating food, gender dimorphism = I feel like shit
minimalism, minimising needs, non-attachment, asexuality, not eating, androgyny = I feel better about myself
"younger self" = 80s/90s, red bull, smoking, apoxianer stuff
"older self" = 2000s, monster, vaping, curvier stuff
I regret getting a neighties gamer console so much now that I grew out of a cringey hideous godawful phase.
but 2D video games + weed is just another vibe
someone that uses their own ego to intentionally distort facts to make them more pleasant to their self-esteem
YOU MUST RESEARCH HOW TO SAVE GTA III (and don't beat yourself up feeling like a poser for having to do that)
Im like the weird colourful eclectic boy and all the other boys are like monochrome black futurustic. This is a disgrace. My younger self wanted to be not like the other boys so much but this is the price.
What would be my brother's opinion to me being rather creeped by smoking PSA's?
I can't half-crossdress with my hair in pigtails unless my hair is dark enough (but not so dark I look like edgy tough woman). Hair like that and flowers/apples/cherries/ oak trees is the nice.
"Im more sluglike than you"
"I can't believe my younger self wanted a dog / a motorbike"
"those stupid pointless glasses from Typo our younger selves would wear whenever watching films" ---> "isn't it simlike to hoard meaningless trash?"
"r u as obsssed as sims" (applying for jobs)
"yes thats very simmy" (writing journals in chronologically order with date and time)
"yes wtf" "actually yes" (it's not that creepy that I get sexual attention from plugs in Swalwell, although it is understandable I am jealous of "normal", happier-looking people)
"isn't simlike behaviour evidence we are living in a simulation"
WHY IS EVERYONE IN MINECRAFT FILM SO FAT
ITS SO SIMMIFIED, LIKE WHAT MY BROTHER PROBABLY THINKS OF ME
no internet
nuh uh ahhhhhh
i always try hard to look cool even thouhg thats a very vague term but i always look so fucking ridiculous poser
cowardice is simlike
politeness is simlike
low pain tolerance is simlike
following a strict routine is simlike
productivity is simlike
speaking/writing plainly is simlike (bonus points if long-winded)
to make matters worse, I doubt therapists would understand this considering they're likely too simlike themselves to understand even the vaguest definition of such a term
I can't play GTA III because (even though it's obviously GTA, not the Sims) the characters literally are fucking sims. Max is the GTA player and I am one of the people in the game.
Almost every time I leave the house I feel inferior to strangers, especially younger people. I can tell just by looking at them, the way they look everything they do and say etc, they're way less S word than I am.
I'm so dysphoric about the way my voice sounds, even if it is not overly feminine.
I regret picking old technology so much. I look too much like a pick-me.
"There's nothing wrong with that, you are who you are" is such a vague response
others think of me as stuck in the past, sheltered, etc.
others think of me as literally everything I do not want to be to an extreme in ways I never expected, and it's very distressing.
I want to be the backrooms
I want to be those scene kids
I want to not give a fuck
I want to be a basement dweller (as cringe as that is)
I do NOT want to be a "sim"
if I am convinced I am a mistyped sensor + E2 in an intuition grip, instead of otherwise, I feel pathetic.
Porridge is such a younger self food.
so 2w1 people are supposed to become more 5w6 with age?
it's considered cowardly to find anything creepy at all
CURVY WOMAN. I dont want to be her
i hope my physique wont get that thicc. i worry it already is
hoarding, materialism, consumerism, sexuality, eating food, gender dimorphism = I feel like shit
minimalism, minimising needs, non-attachment, asexuality, not eating, androgyny = I feel better about myself
"younger self" = 80s/90s, red bull, smoking, apoxianer stuff
"older self" = 2000s, monster, vaping, curvier stuff
I regret getting a neighties gamer console so much now that I grew out of a cringey hideous godawful phase.
but 2D video games + weed is just another vibe
someone that uses their own ego to intentionally distort facts to make them more pleasant to their self-esteem
YOU MUST RESEARCH HOW TO SAVE GTA III (and don't beat yourself up feeling like a poser for having to do that)
Im like the weird colourful eclectic boy and all the other boys are like monochrome black futurustic. This is a disgrace. My younger self wanted to be not like the other boys so much but this is the price.
What would be my brother's opinion to me being rather creeped by smoking PSA's?
I can't half-crossdress with my hair in pigtails unless my hair is dark enough (but not so dark I look like edgy tough woman). Hair like that and flowers/apples/cherries/ oak trees is the nice.
"Im more sluglike than you"
"I can't believe my younger self wanted a dog / a motorbike"
"those stupid pointless glasses from Typo our younger selves would wear whenever watching films" ---> "isn't it simlike to hoard meaningless trash?"
"r u as obsssed as sims" (applying for jobs)
"yes thats very simmy" (writing journals in chronologically order with date and time)
"yes wtf" "actually yes" (it's not that creepy that I get sexual attention from plugs in Swalwell, although it is understandable I am jealous of "normal", happier-looking people)
"isn't simlike behaviour evidence we are living in a simulation"
WHY IS EVERYONE IN MINECRAFT FILM SO FAT
ITS SO SIMMIFIED, LIKE WHAT MY BROTHER PROBABLY THINKS OF ME
no internet
nuh uh ahhhhhh
i always try hard to look cool even thouhg thats a very vague term but i always look so fucking ridiculous poser
cowardice is simlike
politeness is simlike
low pain tolerance is simlike
following a strict routine is simlike
productivity is simlike
speaking/writing plainly is simlike (bonus points if long-winded)
to make matters worse, I doubt therapists would understand this considering they're likely too simlike themselves to understand even the vaguest definition of such a term
I can't play GTA III because (even though it's obviously GTA, not the Sims) the characters literally are fucking sims. Max is the GTA player and I am one of the people in the game.
Almost every time I leave the house I feel inferior to strangers, especially younger people. I can tell just by looking at them, the way they look everything they do and say etc, they're way less S word than I am.
I'm so dysphoric about the way my voice sounds, even if it is not overly feminine.
I regret picking old technology so much. I look too much like a pick-me.
"There's nothing wrong with that, you are who you are" is such a vague response
others think of me as stuck in the past, sheltered, etc.
others think of me as literally everything I do not want to be to an extreme in ways I never expected, and it's very distressing.