I left the first girl I loved over three years ago. I left so she would be able to get herself healthy. Now, I'm depressed, sometimes suicidal and often drunk (like now) I have not written a post in three years and check back only to see if she has written to me. I miss her. I miss my angel. Idk where she is. I can't do anything anymore. No job, no life, I just wanna wake up and her be next to me. I miss you so much. Come back, please. I love you..