not in a poetic way or anything, its just that theres been a bunch of earthquakes around the world and since my country is known for being seismic, i cant help but hope that one does strike just so i can die already and i can stop worrying. thats why i want to die, to stop worrying. i hate my life still and i hate i cant control myself enough to just deal with what i worry about. i wish i could die and reincarnate as anything that isnt me. id rather be a rock than make it to 18 alive in this shitass world