I remember when my heart used to feel like it was exploding.. The long nights I stayed up thinking and crying.. It felt like I was experiencing every single negative emotion at once. All I could do was curl up in a ball and hope to fall asleep.
But now.. There is nothing. No feeling. No emotional pain, which is nice, but there's no good feelings either. I don't feel alive anymore. Someone can insult me, terribly, and I have no reaction. I can ride a roller coaster; no fun. I can win a soccer game rivalry, I can get an award for music, I can get good grades... And I feel no sense of accomplishment.
I feel like.. There's nothing here anymore. Life is just something that I do.. Everything seems so pointless. I don't even feel like listening to music anymore, most of the time.. I can't even cry..
Is this what life is really supposed to be..?
But now.. There is nothing. No feeling. No emotional pain, which is nice, but there's no good feelings either. I don't feel alive anymore. Someone can insult me, terribly, and I have no reaction. I can ride a roller coaster; no fun. I can win a soccer game rivalry, I can get an award for music, I can get good grades... And I feel no sense of accomplishment.
I feel like.. There's nothing here anymore. Life is just something that I do.. Everything seems so pointless. I don't even feel like listening to music anymore, most of the time.. I can't even cry..
Is this what life is really supposed to be..?