EVERYONES MORE INTROVERTED THAN I AM😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[3nufk1n.sheepies]

typal triggers

i overhesrd someone say "ok" with a dismissive tone of voice just because i was yawning
-kids i dont recognise waving at me from another bus
-"i dont care if i am hungry"
-bus driver not hearing what i say, and calling a young person ticket a "childs ticket"
-drawing unwanted attention from strangers in general
-"can your phone erase your ex" ad
-"domestic abuse is more common than you think" ad
-i was biting my nails becausr i was upset. someone next to me said "im so scared of crossrosds you know it makes me so intimidated"
-someone calling me outfit "no friends core"

i see loads of people with anime t shirts on . my ideal self is normalised

i swrar ill order all food of tesco wbesite. amd buy american dxm pills off ebay instrsd of the god awful disgusting Robitussin syrup from pharmacies

 

[3nufk1n.sheepies]

i get unsolicited comments from strangers. They simultaneously OUT-INTJ me and DE-INTJ me, which is extremely painful

"no friends core" = i try to dress like a loner just for the aesthetic while not actually being a loner
"i am so afraid of crossroads they intimidate me" = i was biting my nails because i was upset, not because i was afraid of the road

introversion is getting more and more common. makinf me more extravert in comparison 💔💔
people are more inattentive, zoned out, lost in thought, and im not, but i really wznt to be dreamy and spacey as well 💔💔💔
what counts as dramatic is getting lower and lower. me crying at a normal volume looks like a full blown meltdown to them. me ebing nostalgic and reminsicing on nice stuff from my past looks dramatic to them.

im crying and no one cares. it goes to show how nonchalant, emotionless and absent minded everyone is.

EVERYONE IS BECOMING MORE AND MORE WHAT I WANT TO BE MORE THAN I AM MYSELF AND IT MAKSS ME WANT TO DIE

I EITHER GET DE-ESFXING PROCEDURES OF SOME KIND OR I KMS

 

[3nufk1n.sheepies]

typesitioning refers to any and all processes that permanently alter a transtypal person's behaviour, cognition, personality, presentation or overall "vibes" to align with their ideal self

it is not an easy process nor can it happen overnight. it requires dedication, willpower, and an appropriate, affirming environment. intentional and consciojs self monitoring when around is not enough as anti self triats can still easily be uncontrollably visible especially if said transtypal person is upset or anxious- ig a person's brain neuroplasticity cognitive patterns and behaviour has to be amended and permanentlt shifted