i feel like im falling so deep i dont think ive ever felt this low i constantly feel alone i spend ever second thinking about dying i dont no what to do i just want to die... today i didn't say a single word to anyone irl and no one even noticed... i might as well just go im sure no one would even notice i was gone... i would just be doing everyone a favour if i was gone...people could just get on with there lives no more having to deal with me i cant deal with anything anymore... i feel so so low i couldnt even get out of bed this morring... i didnt leave my room for more than 2mins at a time untill about 6.30pm mum just yelled at me and told me to stop been lazy... idk whats happened to me my mate asked me if i wanted to hang out in the holidays and i was like na not really.... she was like why i had no idea what to say so i just didnt text her back i feel like im just idk i used to be quite socail i was shy but still did things with friends now all i wanta do is hide away... im sinking futher and futher into this idk what to do :blub: :cry: im scared and alone... 
and about ready to just give up...
and about ready to just give up...