Lately I have been sleeping through the day and when I do get up I am still tired and just feeling unwilling to do anything and my body just feels weak today everytime I got out of bed my legs would just shake and I keep getting headaches and feel sick after I eat Also I find myself going to the toilet a lot if I do feel stressed I know it sounds kinda gross but its true along with some really bad stomach pains. I know this sounds like text book depression but its not normal for me I could always cope with my depression whether it was by cutting, smoking weed, drinking or playing games. I know these aren't the best ways to cope but those were the easiest for me. Now no matter what I try and do to occupy my mind I feel awful the other day I spent 3 hours before work staring at the floor listening to music. Getting mood swings too from stupid shit like my shower not working one minute I am trying to get myself pumped for the day the next I am punching my wall over and over again frustrated because of my shower. Even sex isn't satisfying for me when I am in the mood for it which is never. Which is odd for me as I am quite a sexual person with my partner. I find myself up late like I am tonight questioning what I am doing here. I even skip work sometimes I used to do it sometimes just call in saying I have a cold or something now I don't even call I just turn off my phone and sleep through my shift and wake up after my shift starts so I don't feel soo guilty about it. I used to do it before but now I am older I really find living life trivial. For years I have thought can I really go through all this crap swallowing everything down not getting mad at people letting people push me around and blaming everything on myself without blowing up at someone. I have posted a few threads on here about similar crap but now everything is just taking its toll on me where I feel weak emotionally and physically and I just can't find control. I don't have any friends only my partner but she has started university and is making new friends so now I don't see her for as long as I used to. Sorry for the long boring story, I would just like to get some responses from any members here who have been in the same position as me and find out what you guys do to cope.