I found out my Mom is in the hospital and needed surgery and I’m sick to my stomach worrying. I live 2 hours away and didn’t say to this face to face because of that, but I told her don’t even think about leaving because if she did then I would go with her without any hesitation. She thought I wasn’t serious and smiled, but I am 100% serious. You would think that that is something a child that depends on their mother and lives with them would feel like, but I’m 33 and live 2 hours away. Despite living far away, she is probably the person I talk to the most because I isolate myself from people. I live alone and don’t have friends which makes me feel so humiliated even as someone writing this anonymously. I hate myself and feel like a terrible person for this thought even crossing my mind, but the thought of “if something happened and she passed away during surgery, I would be able to kill myself without any hesitation”. It would be the easiest decision ever.
Feeling alone
- Thread starter loneric
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I live alone too - and 5000 KM from my wife. We speak every day on WhatsApp, but... OK, I will fly there next week for a month (will be hot season now) but other than you, I got so used to being alone. I mean alone - ok, I talk to some people just like normal - in the gym, the supermarket, places they know me... but its nothing deep. I do not even have telephone numbers. But I feel ok with it - it gives me freedom. Seems, the only person who can get close to me, is my wife.
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