I am standing in the shower with my head against the cold tile. My arms hang limp as the stinging water slides down my back. Staring at the angry red slices. So ashamed, So ashamed at my weakness but crave it so much. Crave the blade that brings sweet release as the skin parts. The blood rushes forward to fill the chasms in my flesh. Flowing over collecting into red rivers that make their way down my arm. They silently drip from each finger on to the floor below. I just want to go deeper and deeper. Deep enough to sleep forever and bring my sweet release. **sighs** This is all i could think about in my chem / physics lectures. *@$% going to any other class today. :sad: Feeling pretty down, anyone around to talk?