I don't think I have a lot to be upset or sad about really I'm 19 have a job and a house not poor or homeless but I read all of these stories and they make me very upset and I want to help every one of them and me myself know that it is not the easy helping some people when people try to help me they don't really do anything g but tell me not be sad doesn't really help I miss my ex girlfriend and she was my first everything kiss, love and we took each others virginity we had a lot of arguments like every relationship but I broke up with her because I was stupid we got bacl together a few times and she's had boyfriends but the latest time she broke up with a guy for me and told me she wanted to marry me etc. But ended up only wanting to be my friend she changed a lot I don't want her but I want her I think about her everyday and I don't mean shit to her or anyone else I try to be nice to or friends with so I'm just starting to hate people and just be alone and I don't want to be like this I love people and helping them but I don't think I'm like a normal person idk what to Think I'm just asking god to send me someone I can talk to or click with or just a very good friend similar to me that understands and I know it's best to wait for these things but it's hurting