I don't have time to go into details, but I feel like my life is still in vain. I don't feel like I don't matter to anyone. It's hard to fit in and I can't let go of the past, in particular, a painful rejection from a few years ago. The therapist I am currently talking to ( kind of court ordered, and I don't want to explain why again) is not easy to talk to because the mental health system here is overcrowded and therapists and doctors don't have time to actually talk. I feel stuck and frustrated.