I know that September 11th to many people is a reminder of the tragedy that happened 12 years ago. But my greatest personal tragedy happened today. The woman I love more than life itself passed away this morning. I promised her I would not hurt myself, but I can't deny that I want to die right now. I don't want to carry on without her. I want to be with her. But I made a promise, that I wouldn't commit suicide, that I would wait until it was my time. Ellie, I love you. I always loved you and I always will. I hope you aren't in any pain anymore. I am sorry for everything you went through. I'm sorry I couldn't save you. I'm sorry we couldn't be together. I wanted nothing more than to share my life with you. You will always be in my heart. Always and forever.