I understand about the friend part cause I only have co workers and family. You guys are my friends and feel like everyone has a connection. We all been through some kind of pain and suffering so in away we are family. So I want you to we don't hate you. We love ya buddy and want the best for you. So try and think positive and hope you have a better night. Don't give up cause you stronger then me and have a lot of great thingsngs ahead of you. Good things come to good people. So it will be there in no time.