Recently I've started gaining weight and it really scares me. I've been trying hard to loose, skipping meals etc more and more but now I'm trying to eat more for someone. At first it wasn't so bad, but I'm gaining more and more and it actually terrifys me. I'm pretty sure it's to do with how much worse I am at the moment. I self harmed the other day when I hadn't for a while, the urges get stronger and more, and I'm getting increasing thoughts about suicide and stuff. It's really pathetic that this is a factor of it, but I'm really sure it is, and i don't know how to deal with it or anything. In a way it's making me detach a bit from the person (my boyfriend) and I don't want to, but I can't help it. Like I said, it's only a factor, but it's an increasing one. I'm not sure the point of posting this, any advice?