how i sleep knowing no one would care if i actually killed myself, no one loves me, i hold no value in the world, i have no reasons to get up in the morning, baby hands, no jawline, no hips, no play, no validation, no sympathy, no reliable support system, no dopamine, no serotonin, nothing is exciting, health conditions keep spawning, no one would miss me if i were gone, nothing would change if i was gone, no one would cry, i would die a virgin, i cant be normal, no one takes me seriously, shitass mindset, shitass attitude, existing as myself always implies being made fun of, math stopped making sense a month ago, whole body hurts, i havent known mental peace in months, and i havent felt joy for a whole year.
