im getting tired of having a very boring routine for life just going day to day being awake for 20-22 hours most just laying down watching tv thinking about dying or just sitting in school listening to must. i dont really have friends .i also realized how pathetic my life is someone besides family hugged me for the first time today and im 16. i also just want someone to give crap about me. if i take my meds i feel just as depressed as if i didnt. i just do not know what to do. i have also been even more depressed since i stopping do drugs. its a constent battle to try not to go back to drugs.