Please give it some time. You might change your mind... One thing I can guarantee is that it will eventually get better. No, you will never stop loving and missing him. But one day you will wake up and the memories will be recognized with a smile. I kind of feel like that's what it's like for me with my cat. When I think of him now -- I sort of feel like I keep his spirit alive. I realize that this is difficult to see. Which is why I'd recommend waiting a little bit. Best regards.