Hardest thing to express

[Congratsbaby]

I feel grief all the time and as much as I wouldn't like being a human and living among humans , I feel we all do feel it all the time.
Grief. I think everyone just hide from it , run from it , distract themselves but it's always there.

Or maybe people don't. But that seems impossible to me. I like to think people do. That makes me feel less alone , because I do all the time.

Yet it's one of the things I talked least about , it's the hardest thing to talk about.

No words seem right , no sentences enough. And at the end , I try to distract myself too but fail always.

It's. painful.

When you want things to go back how they were but that can't happen. There's so many sub categories of grief. I love you , I didn't lose just you. So many things with it.

Whoever created us made us extra sensitive lmao. And that's beautiful and cruel altogether.

 

[may71]

Hugs Congratsbaby

 

[Congratsbaby]

Hugs Congratsbaby

I appreciate the hugs , thankyou Mr may
I guess you understood what I was saying here. But even if you didn't , I am glad for the support. It helps.

 

[may71]

I guess you understood what I was saying here

I hope I understood. I'm sorry that grief is with you always.

More hugs

 

[Congratsbaby]

I hope I understood. I'm sorry that grief is with you always.

More hugs

Thankyou for the hugs 💜. Thankyou for trying to understand too.. though I am okay with grief , sometimes to think of the possibility that others don't feel it like I do makes me feel kind of alone , outsider but I am sort of used to that and sometimes also okay with it. I am okay about it right now. It's just I want what I have lost back , so often , so intensely. And sometimes there are other things , as I said " sub categories " but yea. Thankyou. I appreciate you.