Have you lost a loved one to suicide?

[Tmacster1]

I lost my mother to suicide. She killed herself by drug overdose - went to sleep that night and died over night.

 

[Saiyanic]

I've lost a lot of people. I lost 10 people in between 2006-08. My uncle/Second father had a sudden heart attack in July 2007 and my best friend was killed in a hit and run accident during February of the same year. I've lost a couple of friends to cancer, some to suicide and another to a drugs overdose.

 

[Tmacster1]

I only lost my mother to suicide... But, I'm sure I had other long time friends who committed suicide because they felt alone or unwanted...

 

[sudut]

I lost my mother on June 28, 2010 to suicide, Which is how I came across this site. I have always suffered with depression but it got really bad after that. The feelings of guilt, anger, pain,and loss are overwhelming at times.

I am really sorry.

 

[_Lily_]

I lost my dad in September 2011 ...its hard to deal with some time and other times i want to join him .
Ella

 

[Tmacster1]

I feel like I want to join my mother sometimes... But, I tell myself she wants me alive to live my life.

Trevor,

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Sometimes it is really hard, but I agree that she would want you to live your life. I'm sure she wants you to be a success and to have a good life.

 

[Tmacster1]

I know but some nights I feel it difficult because I really do miss my mother... However, I've been making it this far with support which is making me happier I suppose. Loosing someone to suicide is tough - and that's why were called survivors of suicide..

Trevor,

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

It is really hard, like I blame myself for stepfather's death...even though I had nothing to do with it, I'll just put it on myself. But it's not your fault either so you need to remember that. I guess it gets easier with time, you still miss the person but I think it becomes less difficult.

 

[Tmacster1]

Agreed, I find it difficult at times... It's been 7 years sense she committed suicide and I still have a difficult time. I'm sorry to hear about your step dad I try to remember that it's not my fault because she took her life for her own reasons...

Trevor,

 

[red ribbons]

After the torture of my husband's suicide and all these years, it is destroying me. I have a real death wish, not because I miss him but because he robbed me and left me in financial ruination.

 

[bkirzzy13]

I lost my best friend in March, the week before spring break of our senior year... its still difficult to talk about with out crying

 

[1Lefty]

Yes, technically a 3rd cousin, but we were almost the same age. He was a multi-instrumentalist in a country-gospel band, always smiling, with a joke, and I could never tell him a joke, because he already knew the punchlines. All of them. Intelligent and gentle.

His dad had been a cancer survivor, and it returned, but I don't think he had the will to fight anymore, and died barely a year after his son did.

 

[ErIndoorz]

Hi All
I have just found this site as I am struggling to come to terms with losing my beloved nephew to suicide in February.
I am finding it so hard to understand, he was just 29 years old, had a huge talent as a singer and had a beautiful 7 month old son whom he adored and he has just gone and left him.
I'm totally devasted as I just cant understand why he didn't try to get help or to speak to someone

 

[ZacThomas]

I lost my wife last month. I loved her a lot and just feeling completely lost. Don't know how to overcome from this situation.