...I'm starting to get very paranoid about any of this being real. [For reference: I am a female, 18 years old in twelve days, senior in HS, living with my mom. I am diagnosed with ADHD and two weeks ago was prescribed concerta. Started at an 18mg dose, and now I'm at 36mg.] Arguably, it's in my nature to over think and over analyze situations. And recently, I was diagnosed with ADHD. I read a book about it, specifically, women with ADHD, and found it incredibly relatable. However, one of the first solutions my mom and I have tried for coping with this (other than therapy which I was already in) is medication. My psychologist is a very kind woman, and I think she seems very intelligent and professional. I put a lot of trust in her to know what she's doing. At the same time, when I look around for more information about ADHD, there are a lot of controversies. The statistic that 70% of people properly diagnosed with ADHD are helped by medication, once the right dosage is found, seems promising. But the arguments against medication seem to bring up valid points: For how long is it successful? Is medication necessary? Will this affect me in the long term? Can it inhibit growth or development of my brain? And when you look more into on the internet, which is a bad idea I know, it seems that some people even doubt that ADHD is a real disorder. Or maybe it's just a different kind of "brain". How much of that even matters? I am just scared that this medication, or too much of it, will change who I am. Or stop me from fulfilling my potential. Either way, the concerta hasn't made much of a difference so far. Except, I feel even more tired than usual at night and in the mornings. Help...ADHD is real...but still so much about it is unknown sometimes it worries me...like maybe this isn't even what my real problem is.