I am currently having ECT for my depression, but I realize that the depression is my life situation. What is ECT supposed to accomplish? it can't change my life. Why subject myself to ECT when suicide seems a much better solution. I have to find a day to fit my suicide in, work around my work schedule so I won't leave people high and dry. But today would be so easy, and so comforting. I need the rest. I am so tired.