I have mixed feelings for my partner. I guess we have always been this way, but lately ive been feeling more miserable than ever before with him. He wants a threesome and is attracted to other women. I cant get this as I thought he was a gentle person, but hes telling me this straight away. He also tells me (*im sorry*) that my pussy is loose compared to many other women he met before me. He tells me that my friends are sexy. And ive been strong enough to suggest a threesome with one of my friends. But now were discussing things at another level - were talking with his friends now that "its better if you do it together, then if he goes and does it with 2 other girls"
I feel fucking miserable and desperate for love yet again. Every time hes hanging up on Skype my heart starts racing as if it s the last time we talk. Im scared I will be abandoned and I feel like I should start looking for a new partner!!
But hey, is the problem really in him. Im behaving like im attracted to Skype, were long distance but thats totally enough for me knowing were moving towards getting together. He on the other hand is staying supersocial and its hard to differentiate whether its because hes longing for me or for some other womens meat hahhaha !
Im thinking too much I should show him that I can live a life too
Thats just so painful and i get these strange feelings in my chest. If i were to describe them i would use words "nasty" "black mass" "feels like shit" "alien" "abnormal" "mental" . I can physically feel shit put down my throat. I didnt even think id come up with a description like that!! I can see now that i feel very _humiliated_. I really want a change of lifestyle.
I feel fucking miserable and desperate for love yet again. Every time hes hanging up on Skype my heart starts racing as if it s the last time we talk. Im scared I will be abandoned and I feel like I should start looking for a new partner!!
But hey, is the problem really in him. Im behaving like im attracted to Skype, were long distance but thats totally enough for me knowing were moving towards getting together. He on the other hand is staying supersocial and its hard to differentiate whether its because hes longing for me or for some other womens meat hahhaha !
Im thinking too much I should show him that I can live a life too
Thats just so painful and i get these strange feelings in my chest. If i were to describe them i would use words "nasty" "black mass" "feels like shit" "alien" "abnormal" "mental" . I can physically feel shit put down my throat. I didnt even think id come up with a description like that!! I can see now that i feel very _humiliated_. I really want a change of lifestyle.