so my head is fucking pounding....i can't weawr my glasses cuz they make it worse so i can hardly see my computer screen right now. but i'm so freakin down lately......like....i just feel like everything is pointless, like my life is going nowhere and i can't fix it. everyone i talk to just wants to sit and "comfort" me with all there "well it will get better" and their solutions and shit....and its just not needed, sometimes i need you people to just shut up and let me talk. you make me feel like an idiot. i'm just so mad all the time right now cuz i'm so down and my head always hurts and i can't sleep much.......i don't know what to do. its just getting worse and worse. i'm in a deadend job that i hate and don't get treated well at all when i work my ass off. my manager pretends to listen to me but does NOTHING about anything i bring to her. but says i'm one of her favorites and she dosn't want to lose me. its just bull shit. and another thing, why is it so hard for me to have REAL friends that really care aout me. like the ones that do care to talk to you all the time, and would do anything for you? i mean come on, i see everyone with those kinds of friends why don't i have those? no one really gives a shit about me. and i'm gonna get all these posts of people saying they really care about me....but in all honesty i don't think anyone on here REALLY does....they all have their own friends and circles and i'm not included in any of that....thats how my entire life has been, on the outside of everyones circles. no one ever REALLY tries to get to know me, cuz it does take a little while for me to really start to show the real me, but thats cuz i've been hurt, but no one takes the time or really cares to listen, but oh well right. why does it matter cuz my life is all pointless anyways.