Hello,
I thought that joining this forum will help me try and deal with the garbage that is going on in my head. Heres my story, i was abused at a very early age by my parents, and then their marraige disolved, my mother took to alcoholism, and turfed me out onto the street at 17 yrs old. I enlisted into the forces, my first tour was in 99 in Kosovo, where i was involved with exhuming war dead that the serbs had committed. I returned after 7 months there, then went out to Iraq for 8 months, whilst i was out there, i was subjected to continual bombardment from insurgent forces. I was then recalled home wheee my brother had comitted suicide, we were very close. That was my first admission into a psychatric ward where i spent 3 weeks trying to sort out stuff, was then posted again. I discovered that my wife had had an affair with a colleague of mine. Then i was out to afghanistan, lost 3 of my closest friends, then came back , posted to another unit, and then back out to afghanistan. More death followed, eventually the discharged me following a medical review after i had a massive breakdown, since then i have attempted suicide a few times and been recalled to hospital 3 more times. And now the pain of all.this just keeps hounding me and im.fed up it all.
I thought that joining this forum will help me try and deal with the garbage that is going on in my head. Heres my story, i was abused at a very early age by my parents, and then their marraige disolved, my mother took to alcoholism, and turfed me out onto the street at 17 yrs old. I enlisted into the forces, my first tour was in 99 in Kosovo, where i was involved with exhuming war dead that the serbs had committed. I returned after 7 months there, then went out to Iraq for 8 months, whilst i was out there, i was subjected to continual bombardment from insurgent forces. I was then recalled home wheee my brother had comitted suicide, we were very close. That was my first admission into a psychatric ward where i spent 3 weeks trying to sort out stuff, was then posted again. I discovered that my wife had had an affair with a colleague of mine. Then i was out to afghanistan, lost 3 of my closest friends, then came back , posted to another unit, and then back out to afghanistan. More death followed, eventually the discharged me following a medical review after i had a massive breakdown, since then i have attempted suicide a few times and been recalled to hospital 3 more times. And now the pain of all.this just keeps hounding me and im.fed up it all.
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