Hello everyone.
I am growing closer and closer to the day I take my own life. I have no access to axxxx, so xxxxx myself is not an option. Neither is mass amounts of xxxxx. I wan't to kill myself, and not fail. If I do fail this suicide, I will be locked away forever! So I need something depressing as life itself to help me throught this. I have given up... And my thoughts are filled with nothing. I am not having a terrible life at all. I just cannot think of anything I want to do with my life. And I cannot think about consquences of my decsisions I could make for myself. Right now, I am diagnosed with Schizoprehnia and Autism. I have recieived lots of hate towards with. Theres some things I can just not explain at all to you people. There is no hope in replying to this. Because no one can help me. I will not accept hope... Only hope can help me. If that makes sence to anyone reading this. Which it will not, see why I want to die? You do not understand, I am tired of being like this. And nothing can change it... I was told I am someone I am not. By my bestest friend. How do you think that makes me feel? I am thinking of tieing a sort of... xxxx. I think of my family being descraced by this, but I honestly think> this is the only way I can get throught to everyone one, And what it's like for me to live in this world. :sigh:
I am growing closer and closer to the day I take my own life. I have no access to axxxx, so xxxxx myself is not an option. Neither is mass amounts of xxxxx. I wan't to kill myself, and not fail. If I do fail this suicide, I will be locked away forever! So I need something depressing as life itself to help me throught this. I have given up... And my thoughts are filled with nothing. I am not having a terrible life at all. I just cannot think of anything I want to do with my life. And I cannot think about consquences of my decsisions I could make for myself. Right now, I am diagnosed with Schizoprehnia and Autism. I have recieived lots of hate towards with. Theres some things I can just not explain at all to you people. There is no hope in replying to this. Because no one can help me. I will not accept hope... Only hope can help me. If that makes sence to anyone reading this. Which it will not, see why I want to die? You do not understand, I am tired of being like this. And nothing can change it... I was told I am someone I am not. By my bestest friend. How do you think that makes me feel? I am thinking of tieing a sort of... xxxx. I think of my family being descraced by this, but I honestly think> this is the only way I can get throught to everyone one, And what it's like for me to live in this world. :sigh:
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