so i went to the doctor today to talk about my binge eating. he did absolutly nothing. he said then just lose weight and that was that. it seems like everyone that i talk to about this, just dismisses it. they think its not serious or something. i don't know what to do. i don't know how to stop. i don't know how to get help. i eat four or five pounds of food a day. and its all junk. i spend thirty to fourty dollars on food a day. i have three grand of credit card debt all spent on food. i weigh 450 pounds. i have chronic back pain, hypertension, knee pain, and sleep apnea. i can't stand for more than a few mins without being in pain. that is just the physical. the mental is worse. i can't look at myself. i can't buy clothes. i can't fit in booths, or seats on bus or airplane. i get stared at all the time. i feel like i should just kill myself because of it. i'm addicted. i eat and eat and eat. then i get sick and eat some more. i crave food. if i don't get it, i get headaches and everything. i am constantly planning what to eat next, and how i can eat it. what the fuck am i supposed to do about this other than just kill myself?