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Getting rid of substances: I always used the method of "sneaking out". Every day a little less,
The other things - there are only two ways: either stay home, think, suffer and you will go under.... or find the strength to walk - every day, as long as you can/like... you will see how much this changes. I go as well to the gym every morning and it helps a lot.
I made a kind of plan for every day: get up, clean the apartment, shower, gym, go shopping, make something to eat and in the afternoon or at lunch time - start to walk. When coming home I feel relieved and better.
The more often you do this, it will become a regular thing and you will feel the difference, Self harm leads nowhere, I did this even in the office - and nobody gave a shit: as long as you do your job well, who cares? Who knows even? Walking helps to reduce medication really well.
Wish you the power you need, Big hug.
The other things - there are only two ways: either stay home, think, suffer and you will go under.... or find the strength to walk - every day, as long as you can/like... you will see how much this changes. I go as well to the gym every morning and it helps a lot.
I made a kind of plan for every day: get up, clean the apartment, shower, gym, go shopping, make something to eat and in the afternoon or at lunch time - start to walk. When coming home I feel relieved and better.
The more often you do this, it will become a regular thing and you will feel the difference, Self harm leads nowhere, I did this even in the office - and nobody gave a shit: as long as you do your job well, who cares? Who knows even? Walking helps to reduce medication really well.
Wish you the power you need, Big hug.
we are on the same page-i get up feed my cats-tidy up-go to the bakers for rolls and make up a cheese roll then i go feed the ducks and i eat that cheese roll-i sit by the river and make random conversation with strangers-its the time of the year as well my friend-dark 4pm a long night when you are on your own-the winters get me.
I’m sorry to be alive. We’re not supposed to talk about methods here, but I have one in mind that I could do right away. The problem though, is that I don’t have a strong chance of dying this way, and there would be legal and financial consequences if I survive. Going to try to stop thinking about this. I think I will fail but at least I’m trying.
Hey there @LumberJack …
Is there something that you can do right now to get your mind off of this way of thinking?
I seem to recall that you practice Buddhism? Do you meditate? Would that help you now?
Is there something that you can do right now to get your mind off of this way of thinking?
I seem to recall that you practice Buddhism? Do you meditate? Would that help you now?
I can’t take time to meditate until work is over in about 4 hours. I will try that when I’m off though.
I didn’t go through with my fantasy. I think I am not strong enough to do it myself. I wish I could go to a hospital and donate my organs, like immediately. Just put me under and use me for spare parts.
I didn’t go through with my fantasy. I think I am not strong enough to do it myself. I wish I could go to a hospital and donate my organs, like immediately. Just put me under and use me for spare parts.
@LumberJack I'm also glad you're still alive. Not to imply it's okay or anything like that to be feeling miserable.
I hopefully believe life has changes in store for you: to peaceful and actual joy.
hug
I hopefully believe life has changes in store for you: to peaceful and actual joy.
hug
Yep. I am there again. I’m not good at making anyone above me on the socioeconomic ladder happy. So I am miserable at work. There are people who care about me, but none of them are involved in whether I get a paycheck. I don’t want to be on disability or in any way a burden on those who do care. I want to end it so that I no longer have to struggle to keep body and soul together, but that would hurt all the people who I care about. It’s an extremely painful dilemma.
I’m feeling less stigmatized over taking leave from work. FMLA has a provision for intermittent leave where I could still work part time and have extra days off for appointments and IOP, if that is what I need. For me right now, I think I would get more done overall to be working 3 days a week. Right now it’s very stressful trying to fit appointments with providers in with my work schedule.