The last 13 14 years have been hell, including ivf - resulting in pregnancy and miscarriage, hysterectomy, which led to separation and then divorce , met someone new children are awful to me , their dad no better , gaslighter manipulative , coercive , narcissistic led me to have mental breakdown this year leading to me moving out , losing job, home ,dog etc I’m really done with it all, now I work shitty job to make enough money to pay the council and government and have not a lot left over what’s the point