just wanted to introduce myself. guess i'm doing things in the wrong order since i've already posted on a few threads, but that's typical of me. i'm 30, from the states, live there now, but am desperately looking for a reason to move abroad again. i just don't feel like i fit in here. that's another tangent though. i'm bi-polar, bpd, and add ... and usually depressed as all get out and wander in and out of suicidal states with alarming frequency. once in a while i feel like i have a handle on things and then *bam* everything seems to slip away and crumble into a million pieces. trying to deal the best way i know how, but have found that ultimately, the people around me really don't relate or understand ... and for that i have registered here. not sure if it will help any, but at least i don't think my thoughts/insanity/desires/dreams from the bottom of the well will be completely lost and misunderstood here. cheers!